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A Blessed 2009 to Everyone …

Yes, my wish for the New Year  is that everyone will live a blessed and fulfilling life!

As always, things happen for great reasons … so a blessed life to me does not mean that only good things happen and everything goes smoothly – it means to me that we learn and grow from small hiccups and face greater tasks with confidence & gusto and lead a progressive life mentally & emotionally … spiritually, I have to work at  it (I will give “physically” a definite miss).

I did not and will not make any new year resolution.  Since beginning of 2008, I have set my mission and vision in my life.  Every steps along the way, I remind mindful that my actions contributed to my life vision.  I became happier … that said, I have always been easy go lucky, I have always been pretty happy.  Think my name helps, my Dad gave me the name and he forgot about my Chinese name.

In 2008, a major breakthrough was that I learnt to let go of negative energies – things and persons that bogged me down, however infrequent.  Some things really bothered me but I didn’t know then how to release, they just popped up along the way in my lives.  I still remembered it just happened when I was in the bus on the way to the culinary institute in August, … as usual I was day dreaming, and I just felt ready to move on and live my life.  That was when I shared my journal entries and my life moves on.  When things happen and bothered me, I learnt to “whoosh” it off – somehow it helped and it worked.  Simply that.

For the new year, I am just going to live life … continuously learn and grow as an individual, as a partner in my blessed marriage, as a family with my loving parents, sis & David, bro & Pei San and the 6 beautiful children … as a worthy friend to worthy friends.

Laugh, Love & Live Life.

“I am coming home, aren’t you happy? … hmm” – Pix added

I thought the following email to my family in the wee hours of 1 Dec 2008 should be a worthy entry documenting my days post graduation …  Gosh, now everything I wrote looked like a blog entry, might as well.

Warning:  This entry documents 22 days of my life, it may take you forever to read, live and  understand how things work, don’t bother and don’t question, it is just about … My Life.

Remark:  Some information were altered or modified for clarity since I last wrote to my family, some information (in fact, a lot) were updated, some information which was shared with my family I prefer to keep Privy & Confy on this journal entry , some information were elaborated for my memories. 

Pix will be added coz it tells a story of my journey… (will be uploaded post Orlando trip).

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From: Joys <simjoyous@gmail.com>
Date: Mon, Dec 1, 2008 at 2:28 AM
Subject: I am coming home, aren’t you happy? … hmm
To: “Choo, Beng Kuan” <…>, “Lawrence. Sim” <…>, Pei San Lim <…>, “owd…” <…>, Eileen gmail <…>

 

My dear husband

My dear sis and bro-in-law

My dear bro and sis-in-law

 

 

I am coming home ;)   Please let Dad and Mum know my flight details, it just got confirmed.

 

I graduated on 21 Nov …  but I wasn’t bumming around … my detailed itinerary is as follows: (gosh I wrote like I was updating my blog entry, later I will just cut and paste into my blog ;p)

 

~

22-23 Nov, Sat/Sun.  Spent most of 22 & 23 sleeping (a little end-of-school-term feel, a little jet-lag feel). BK and I were at a neighbour‘s home for chat and wine till 1.30am after we had a Malaysian/Singaporean dinner at Nonya Grill in Missouri City, about 45 min outside Houston.  A celebration of friendship … and my graduation!  

 

~ French Bread with 2 Sunny-side Up ~

~ French Bread with 2 Sunny-side Up ~

We woke up early for breakfast at our fav French Riviera Bakery Cafe – French baguette with 2 sunny sides up and a cup of coffee.  Then I napped through most of Sat and Sun morn, missing BK’s call before he boarded the flight to Singapore.  By the time I was alert on Sun, BK was close to reaching Singapore.  

Yawn

 

Joined my last Houston Dessert Meetup session at Le Petit Paris Bakery in Spring, arranged to meet my secondary classmate Vivian there after 20 long years since we were 16.  Nice!

 

24-26 Nov, Mon-Wed.  Back at the culinary institute for extra sessions, since the Chefs had to forego their 1 week hols.  The sessions were meant to make up lost hours due to hurricane, my class already completed the required hours as Chef Philippe arranged for class to start 45min earlier than normal everyday for a couple of wks. 

 

~ 24 Nov ~ Farewell lunch with Jennie and Rafaella before Rafa left for Brazil.

 

~ With Jennie & Rafaella ~

~ With Jennie & Rafaella ~

~ 25 Nov ~ Farewell lunch with my classmates - 6 of us showed up.  Beers and margaritas for all, except for Elizabeth who is underage at 18. 

~ 6 of us kept to the appointment ~

~ 6 of us kept to the appointment ~

 

 

 

~ 26 Nov ~ A special lunch for the students cooked by the Chefs … Serviced style.  Really nice, but I preferred to have them lunch with us. 

 

Dinner with some Singaporean/Malaysian friends I got to know in Houston at Guoming’s apartment, the guys bought the ingredients and Guoming prep steamboat for us, they bought durians for desserts [not too late for them to find out then I do not eat durian], I made assorted cookies.

~ Having Fun at Our Thanksgiving Eve Gathering, Our Way ~

~ Having Fun at Our Thanksgiving Eve Gathering, Our Way ~

 

 

27 Nov, Thur (Thanksgiving).  Returned to my apt about 4am after playing a fun card game Bonanza - all about beans.  I found out for the past 3 nights I drove without turning on the head lamp fully unknowingly (so much for an experienced driver, ha)?? 

 

Woke up about 11, Bella had invited me to her home for Thanksgiving.  I was served Puerto Rican food ~ Turkey with tomato rice, mashed potatoes with corn and berry sauce cooked by her mum Sally, with pumpkin pie and pecan pie from Flyer Saucer.

 

~ With Alexandra and Her Mom Sally ~

~ With Alexandra and Her Mom Sally ~

 

 

Planned to meet David and Garren for dinner but knocked out before 6.  Woke up at 10pm, shortly Sarah called, she was in the Heights vicinity with her boyfriend Charles and invited me to join them for a drink.  We would not have many other opportunities to meet after.  I was introduced to Oatmeal Cookie cocktail … nice, and had a few sips of Bud Light.  Charles helped me with the rest.  He showed me some bar tricks so I won’t be fooled.  We chatted till past 3.  Told Sarah, I am lucky I knew her late in my mid-life or I will be drinking my nights away …  Slept at 5+am.

 

~ An "Oatmeal Cookie" and A Beer Later ~

~ An "Oatmeal Cookie" and A Beer Later ~

 

 

28 Nov (Black Friday).  Received sms from Garren at 5.50am asking if I was joining them for shopping.  Nope, I wasn’t ready to forgo sleep for cheaper deals.  I found out later in the day they had not slept that night.  About noon, I drove to Katy Mills… more coz I haven’t been there.  Wasn’t in the mood to shop, spent some time reading in Book-A-Million, bought a few books even with no deals… bought some bake wares … Better at supermarket shopping, was at HEB megastore at Gessner till 10 … I spent quite a bit [and happy] ;p

 

29 Nov, Sat.  Updated blog on Graduation, a week overdue.  I found it difficult to catch up with past entries.  So said, be present.  I had planned to drive to San Antonio, but I didn’t feel like it then. 

 

Drove to RAO’s Bakery in Spring, it was part of Houston Dessert Meetup agenda in Jan09, but I will not be here so I checked it out first.  Spent afternoon reading till about 3.  Arranged with Jennifer to visit Phoenicia for the first time ~ she was funny, like a tourist at home.  We had dinner at House of Bowls, spent half hour lost in BW 8/1-10 connection, turned back to Westheimer and took 610N/E instead.

 

30 Nov, Sun.  Woke up at 2+am, guessed it was too cold.  Couldn’t sleep, again surfed online resources, also listed international shipping contact details as my international shipping was not arranged yet, put up To-Do list.  10am, I was exhausted.  Slept till 1pm.

 

SQ flight back to Singapore was confirmed.  Confirmed with Chef in Singapore about our appointment on 13 Dec.  Printed some pix, wrote some cards … sad, distracted.  Procrastinated to study Servsafe.  Couldn’t sleep, again slept at 4.

 

1 Dec, Mon.  Met Chef Kris at about 11am for career plan discussion, … one fine lesson learnt from him ~ plan and be objective-driven.  My vision and objectives remained unchanged, though I need to understand the Singapore market better.  I am clear that family holds an important place in the plan.  We chatted.  Side track - I believe he can be an authority in sous vide if he wants to, I researched the topic a while back coz he spoke about it passionately a couple of times.  Chef Kris set up Servsafe for me to complete at home the next day, free & easy

 

Chef Philippe handed me the Letter and copies he had prepared for me.  I am thankful for every word he put on my letter, the rest is up to me to live up to and exceed expectations.  Again, never to disappoint or I never did  Forwarded my career plan to Chef, he returned with a list of places I can consider in future for extra lessons to upgrade my skills, which was listed as one of the key objectives in my career plan.  Thank you, Chef!

 

I completed writing my cards to the individuals ~ each with a personal note.  Each card was specially chosen for the individual, I got a card for CIAML too – a card printed with a message I want to convey to everyone.  Communicated my final thank and hugs for the individuals at the institute.  I decided that it is going to be the last time … The last time.

 

~ With Sandra @ House of Bowl ~

~ With Sandra @ House of Bowl ~

Had dinner with Sandra at House of Bowls – she preferred to have noodles and we had beef hor fun (rice noodles), egg plants which we both liked, and I must introduce her to the pepper scallion chicken wings which I always enjoyed.  Had Hong Kong milk tea too.

 

 

 

Back in the apartment, received confirmation email from Chef in Orlando that I can drop by the school for a visit and a chat on 3 Dec.  I decided to make a day trip on Southwest Airline, had to pay more for the last minute change for return leg so that I can have a free day on Thursday to do some packing for shipping.  Confirmed flight to Chicago for Sun too, had to pay double for the flight.  Just 2 days early, I would only have to pay $240, couldn’t do so earlier as I was waiting for the Orlando trip to be confirmed, as unused Southwest Airline tickets can be used for future purchase but not cancelled.  Whoosh it, decided not to let it bother me.  

 

2 Dec, Tues.  Met Jennie for breakfast at French Riviera Bakery.  We had a good chat, decided to meet up again during the week when we have the chance to.  Will miss her.  She is the big sister that constantly watched over me and made sure things worked for me in Houston.  She told me, I will see you next year … I went, oh you are visiting Indonesia soon?  She said No, I have no passport.  We will meet in the US ;~  Was that a request or was that a prophecy … ha.  Love the 3 mice, hopefully not 3 blind mice ;)   She told me it signified the friendship between her, Rafa and me, sweet.

 

My Last Lesson … I knew she did a lot of homework, lots.  I am definitely going to miss my first French teacher lots.  With her as a baseline ~ Who can I find in Singapore who will conscientiously pour over recipe book to help me understand words … Who will positively reinforce my learning with Tres bien when I pronounced a word rightly or constructed a sentence correctly … Who will watch and listen to how I pronounced words and encouragingly said I can hear it, when I wasn’t even confident of what I just uttered …  Only Sandra.  The word that got my tongue all twisted: ~ûler .. brû~ … brûler.  Got a vocab and verb book each … it will be fun to recognise and read paragraphs in bits and pieces and get the gist, even if I cannot read the sense out of every word.  Je l’aime!  Soon I am going to roam amazon.fr.

 

Still waiting for inspiration to do servsafe test … ha.  Time: 11.31pm… now 2.32am… 

 

3 Dec, Wed.  This feels so crazy but I am going to do it. 

 

On my Facebook, I updated my status last midnight Joycelyn has decided to fly to Orlando, for a couple of hours and back… Yes, all in a day.  A friend commented on my FB:  Disney World?   My response:  I am not so crazy … more purposeful than that ;p  Yes, I am going to visit a shop, meet a person I was told to meet, ask whatever I got ready to ask and watch a sugar class in action.

 

That is how it is going to work for me to fit it all in a day:  

To & Fro Orlando

Arrive in ORLANDO INTL (MCO) at 1:35 PM, 

Depart ORLANDO INTL (MCO) at 7:30 PM.

 

Chef Charles Carroll wrote, “…I often hear many things from many students but the difference with you is you’re a “doer”  You do what you say you’re going to do...”.  I just realized it myself, doing what I said I am going to do ~ my commitment.  Or more that it is him – like all individuals I look up to – I trust his recommendation and words, and I have no excuses not to pursue great advice.

 

4 Dec, Thur.  I have better to start packing and know what goes into shipping, what goes into my luggage, what goes into someone else’s home, what goes into the trash.  Indeed, I have mainly books, bake stuff.  My gosh, my fridge is still loaded.  Possibly have to steal some time to meet Vivian too before I leave.

 

5 Dec, Fri.  Will be visiting Linda & George and little Aaron at Pearland, and of course passionate Scottie for the last time before I leave.   Amongst the exchange of emails, Linda wrote “… and who wants to come walk Scottie?  …”;  Garren enthusiastically went, “… I volunteer Joys to go walk Scottie, since Scottie likes her. Kekeke”;   Then George added, “And in return for the walk, Scottie will give Joy a Big Wet Slurping Kiss….lol.”  Scottie is a 2 year old? schnauzer – a cutie, a smartie and a real charmer.  I never really like dogs, coz they can get too passionate and overwhelming, but he is a sweet, real sweet.  He actually can read my expression when I pouted my lips and he leaned forward to kiss me?  BK loves dogs, but Scottie only likes ladies, ha.

 

6 Dec, Sat.  My last weekend in Houston. Going to “chiong” (Chinese dialect, loosely translated as party but doesn’t sound right, so maybe hangout) at my fav bakery cafe and read.  Possibly go Museum District and drive round Texas Medical District.  I don’t know, so far, I have never been to where I plan to go except bakery cafes.

 

That evening, I will have my last dinner date with a great couple I got to know in Houston.  Looking forward to it.

 

7 Dec, Sun.  Flight to Chicago.  Was supposed to stop over in Chicago en-route home but couldn’t confirm UA flight Chicago-Narita-Singapore.  Completing a 2 Day Choc-Wine Pairing Workshop on 8-9 Dec. I am flying back to Houston instead to take a direct flight back to Singapore.

 

To Chicago

Sun/Dec 07   Depart HOUSTON HOBBY (HOU) at 12:15 PM 

8-9 Dec, Mon-Tues.  Choc-Wine Pairing Workshop at Barry Callebaut Chocolate Academy.   Chef Kris said to check out Alinea if there is one place I want to go – experience and understand the business philosophy.

 

10 Dec, Wed. 

Fro Chicago

 Arrive in HOUSTON HOBBY (HOU) at 11:45 AM

 

If all my stuff are in order, then I can have a relaxing day … err.

 

11 Dec, Thur.  Goodbye Houston! 

 

To my dearest friends, I will miss ya all! 

To my loved ones in Singapore, I’ll be home in next 24h. 

 

To Singapore

SQ Flight at 16:50h. 

 

13 Dec, Sat.  05:30h arrive in Singapore.  Appointment with Chef later in the morning.  Family hours.

 

~  Home Sweet Home ~

 

 

———- Forwarded message ———-
From: <redemption@krisflyer.com.sg>
Date: Mon, Dec 1, 2008 at 12:26 AM
Subject: Redemption Booking Confirmation
To: xxx

Dear Ms xxx Joysxxx,

You have made a redemption booking with Singapore Airlines for the following trip:
Booking Reference Number: xxx

KrisFlyer Number: xxx

Passenger Name(s): MS JOYS xxx
E-Ticket Number: xxx

You are confirmed on the following flight(s):-
Flight No. : SQ61
Aircraft   : B777-300ER
From       : Houston(IAH – Intercontinental)
To         : Moscow(DME – Domodedovo Intl)
Date       : 11 December 2008
Departure  : 16:50

Flight No. : SQ61
From       : Moscow(DME – Domodedovo Intl)
To         : Singapore(SIN – Changi Intl)
Date       : 12 December 2008
Departure  : 14:25

 

What Will Happen to My Journal Entries?

Interesting question … I was asked this Q a couple of times today.  By Chef Kris, by Jean-Luc, by Mr LeNotre…  I have never given myself a conclusion.

I gave myself an official last day to be at the Culinary Institute ~ I guess today was the last time I bid farewell to Mr & Mrs LeNotre, my Chefs, most friends and individuals at the culinary institute.  Each time I stepped into the Culinary Institute, my emotion got complex … these are the familiarities I grew so accustomed to for the past 20+ weeks in Houston which gave me a sense of belonging and comfort, these are the friends and individuals I have come to know halfway round the globe and may never see for some years to come.  The emotion itself is not something I want to deal with openly.

When Chef Kris asked me the Q this morning, …

I told him I am unlikely to continue my entries.  I was never a natural writer before Houston, I started this journal as a platform for me to park my thoughts and document my precious moments in Houston, for my family and friends to reach out to my inner space without me repeating myself.  So when I leave for Singapore, is Baking Joys In Houston still relevant?

As I thought more about it now, I start to have conflicting thoughts.  This really happens because my mind is cluttered and unavailable to process clearly.  Relevance?  Yes, because it continues to document my Baking & Pastry Art journey from where I began ~ in Houston  … now the journal entry serves as a platform to update the individuals in Houston who care about me  and my journey in Singapore post Houston – these individuals become my adopted family I am leaving for my family back home in Singapore.  It was exactly why the journal entry started in the first place – to update my family and friends in Singapore when I left for CIAML on 30 June.  Oh, has my thought become clearer?  Seems so … Or should the Baking Joys be uprooted and be planted in Singapore instead?  Goodness, why am I going in circles again.

Chef Kris believed I can write, and I can write simple and strike a connection.  His belief in me is stronger than mine of me - I judged myself to be limited in vocab and thus the use of simple expressions.  He repetitively drumed the belief in me, much better than my year 1 GP (General Paper) tutor ever did for me.

When Jean-Luc asked me the Q this afternoon, …

I told him No, the site is just going to crash without warning … My last message to all on 13 Dec 2008 will be titled Arrived Home Safe, Take Care … and the site will just vanish on Sunday, 14 Dec 2008.  Jean-Luc must have taken me seriously because he told me he needs to save some files before the site disappears, especially the last entry I wrote on My Tributes to the Important Individuals upon My Graduation.  I laughed.

I am not so crazy and irresponsible to just vanish and erase all my memories.  I always believe it is easier for me to pack and go than to stay behind and experience the missing bits and pieces.  My entries were connection to my precious times in Houston and the inspirations I travelled the world over to find and will always remain so. 

When Mr LeNotre asked me the same Q this afternoon, …

In fact, Mr LeNotre did not ask, he assumed so.  He told me to continue to update my progress updates in Singapore on my journal entry and he believed I will be successful.

Many times, I was driven by the expectations and faith important individuals placed on me, rather I was inspired to achieve or even exceed my own limit… I am not sure if it is because I do not want to disappoint or I never did, it is a blur.

The conclusion for now is that it is going to stay, as a channel or a memory bank, I do not know.

Back to My Future

Bumped into Kimberly Evans this afternoon along the corridor at the Culinary Institute, she said to me “Send me your resume“.  I reminded her home and career location for me is in Singapore, she remembered that???  I was impressed, the first time we met was last Thursday in the resource centre where we were doing some research for buffet, she introduced herself, asked if we were to graduate in Nov and gave each of us a letter on assistance for career placement.  Then I had told her it may not apply to me as I am not looking for any position in Houston or US, she was open to international assistance as well.  Well that was it then, a super brief conversation and I wouldn’t even think she remembered me and what we spoke. 

I didn’t know you give classes as well?” … Beg her pardon as as I “gate-crashed” her academic class looking for Jennifer to hand her her level 1 result, without realizing Kimberly was the instructor and was in the middle of lesson.  Her background was in Hospitality and Restaurant Management.

Anyway, I do have some ideas what I would like to do in future, at least in 4 year’s time frame.  In the mean time I build up my technical skills and financial resources.

Back in my apartment earlier, I updated my resume and stared at it long and hard, rather I thought hard.  I considered my background and my interests and here goes:

Career Objectives
 Be an asset in a dynamic environment to drive business success
 Apprentice with mentor chefs to advance personal technical skills in pastry arts
 Nurture and inspire continuity and growth in pastry arts industry in Singapore and regional markets

In my career, I aim to be an asset, to continuously advance myself in personal learning and growth, and be a positive influence to my circle.  This resonates with my life mission I had set in January … which led me to take drastic actions in my career and my life.  My Life Mission is to inspire and nurture lifelong growth in individuals through joy and laughter in learning.  I believe strongly in sharing positivities, I believe in bringing joy, smiles and laughters to my circle … not plain blind optimism.  I believe when one enjoys what one is learning whether through structured methods of instruction or pure awareness, personal growth and the circle of influence deepen.  It is perfectly fine to recognise and admit ”I don’t know” and get to know and understand, apply and make it a habit.

Whatever future holds, I hold the belief life is kind to all who give and receive.  I believe in a dynamic balance - while I focus on giving, I receive in more ways than one, and continuously.  That I am blessed.

Too philosophical?  I contemplate life a lot, I made my choices.

The Past Week+ in A Nut Shell … A Week After Ike

Sunday, 21 Sep 2008, about 4pm, along Rice Blvd …

I realised I had a missed call from school earlier around noon, I didn’t know my phone was on vibrating mode.  Anxious to know if I can finally return to pastry lab tomorrow, I sms April.  April confirmed the call from CIAML was “to make sure everyone knew there was school tomorrow”.  I was so happy.  I replied her but my pre-paid value had to run out at this time.  It didn’t matter, I was happy to be back in school again.  The feeling should be exhilarated, to be exact.  I was at Walgreen to purchase a T-mobil refill value card and replied April.  We were both “happy & … ready to go back“, she wrote “see ya in level 2!“.  Oh how I missed the familiarity of lab time, my chefs – my new and my old, and my classmates … and Jennie, Raffaella, Nicole.  See ya all tomorrow!

…   ~ flash back ~

Friday, 12 Sep 2008, about 10am, asleep …

 Jennifer was on the line.  I had ignored the repeated buzz earlier.  For once since I started classes in Houston, I didn’t set an alarm.  Had severe sleep debt last couple of days.  Today was supposed to be my last day of level 1 final as well as my last day in Baking & Pastry Arts level 1.  It was cut short and ended a day earlier in antipation of Ike.  I had updated my journal on my finals late … or early into the wee hours.  I was prepared to sleep in.  Jennifer asked me if I wanted to go over to her place to weather the hurricane together, and she had been watching news report of how Galveston was hit hard that morning – I chose to stay in my apt, I needed a lot of personal space and mental rejuvenation time and I would have time to read and hibernate …  I never thought I would miss class on Monday

Friday, 12 Sep 2008, about 11.50pm, in my apt …

Ike visited around midnight last Friday, with strong wind, at times howling, bringing with it sweeping rain.  I was thinking about my “wedding cake” and how it would look like in a couple of weeks, and working on some internet resources.  Dad called to check if everything was alright, just then the rain poured.  Dad would call me on my cell phone every Friday close to midnight to have a chat with me – Singapore is 13hr ahead, and I would call him back on skypeout.  About 2.20am, I recorded some footage on flip video from my apt of the weather outside my glass pane.  One 3min long footage started and ended with a temporary blackout inside my apt and outside on the streets.  The complete power outage started at 2.30am which was to last the next 80hr for me, thankful, as I realised later the blackout hit some households for the week.  Lights out, I went to sleep reluctantly. 

Saturday, 13 Sep 2008, about 9.00am, still asleep …

BK called to wake me up.  He, together with my parents, Pei San, my sis, David, and 6 lovely children, were about to celebrate my brother’s 38th birthday with birthday song and cake cutting at Chengam home in Singapore.  I remembered my power was cut and there was nothing I could do to access skype webcam to join in celebration.  I realised nothing in my apt, including my alarm clock, worked.  Reality hit when my cell phone ran out of battery, and I felt disconnected since all my communication channels were down.  I was hopeful that power would be up in a couple of hours, as the lady at Walgreen told me the day earlier.  I packed my apt – it has been a mess for the last week … and then read 2 magazines – Entrepreneur on Young Millionaires, and National Geographic on Elephant Love Story … I learnt that elephants are highly emotive and about their group dynamics in the ecosystem.  I am a magazine and book junkie but have resisted spending on magazines since I arrived. 

I went to sleep that night at 8pm when it got dark.  Waking at 10pm and every couple of hours – I have a poor habit of sleeping 2-3hr during school week.  Rather, I never found I needed to sleep a lot.  I was hopeful the next time the day break, everything would be back to normal.

Sunday, 14 Sep 2008, about 8.00am, in my apt …

A light drizzle ended.  The air was cool, a little cold for me.  I decided to go out for a walk.  I sat at the bus stop.  “Is the metro running?”, a truck stopped by me to ask …  I don’t know, just trying my luck. “Do you know where I can get gas?” … Maybe Shepherd?   I overheard some places in Shepherd were opened for business.  I went back to my apt, had put on my jogging shoes to walk around the area but changed my mind.  I had left my apt door and blinds wide open to enjoy the daylight, for the first time since I moved into the apt, it felt safe and nice.  The hurricane brought neighbours closer together, with all the updates and chatters.  I resumed reading Grand Livre de Cuisine d’Alain Ducasse Desserts and Pastries by Frederic Robert, where I left off weeks back, skimming through the recipes and dreaming …  That evening, I remembered fretting over how I can get my uniform and apron ironed for school the next day – yes, I was still hopeful power would be back soon.    Again night fell about 8pm again, I was awake and again at 10+pm, and again at 4am … I had wanted to make use of the quietness and the dark to ponder … it turned out to be futile, the images were colourless and the thought lacked power and energy.

Monday, 15 Sep 2008, about 6.30am, in my apt …

Surely there is no class right?  A guy updated me the day before that school was definitely out for whole of Houston on Monday.  Hmm… 2 days of school missed, I thought.  My antipation for power to resume was running low.  I didn’t miss food last 2 days, only edgy about missing classes and internet connection – connection to the outside world.  I used visulization to ”attract” light but I was not powerful enough… it sounded funny now but I was desperate and serious then. 

Today, I told myself to be useful and started reading a section on On Baking by Labensky et al, a school text book.  By late afternoon, I urgently needed some outside inspiration and connection.  For the first time, I walked around the The Gardens, I realised the apartment across the bayou were really just opposite, separated by a bayou and a road.  That evening, I was to receive some warm food from a then stranger whom I now know as Andrene, who came by as ”I thought you may like something warm“… such warmth – I always believe I am blessed and protected by angels

That night I looked out across the bayou again, no lights … surely there is no school right since my chef didn’t have lights too?  I managed to sleep through most of the night.  

Tuesday, 16 Sep 2008, about 9am, ready to find power source …

Still no electricityenough! … I was going to find some way to charge my phone.  I met a group of neighbours at the gate … I got mixed signal whether there was school, since 1 girl was going back the following day, but the teacher in the group told me they had no school till the following Monday.  10min on, someone shouted from level 3 “We’ve got power”… that moment was filled with hi-fives and exuberance. I got my cell phone charged, contacted my family in Singapore, was everywhere in virtual space – blog, email, skype, facebook … only to lose my internet connection for next 24h.  Having power back, and yet no use of internet made me felt edgy.  I quickly did my laundry in case there was school the next day. How did we spend our days 15 years back in those limited internet age?  I wondered.

BK called my cell phone that night … he asked me how I knew if there was school.  Mum told me earlier BK had called Dennise (as he only had Dennise’s name card during school tour) during power outage and was told school may be out for the week.  Huh? … He asked if I got other source of information – I said I believed there was no school that day since I had looked across the bayou the night before before I slept, and my chef has no lights too … he was amazed … or amused, maybe … by my method of logical deduction to decide if school was on.  He advised me to find out from a proper channel. Hee!

Wednesday, 17 Sep 2008, about 10+am, in my apt …

I really wanted to go out, but couldn’t – waiting for AT&T serviceman to come between 12-5.   I started on Biography of Julia Child and Baking with Julia.  By mid afternoon, I got my internet back up again.  I continued where I left off last Friday with my resource search for my “wedding cake”.  I decided I have to go somewhere the next day for a breather … listed some cafes I would like to try.

That night, I had another internet outage which lasted only an hour … I made and ate corn bread.

Thursdays, 18 Sep 2008, about 9+am, in uptown …

 

I was really happy to take in the sights “outside” again.  I planned to visit French Riveria Cafe at Chimney Rocks – had read about the freshness and French-ness of the breads??!! … Alas, it was not opened, … had Kolache Factory for the second time.  But I was happy just to be out … I was walking along a stretch along Westheimer @ Montrose – … then the demographic changed … shops featuring adult novelties, fantasy gifts and toys, spyware, tatoo, tarot cards and palm reading … , I decided to hop on a bus to return to Post Oaks Blvd where I feel more comfy.  Dreaming in Barnes & Nobles… Elyse called to said school still had no power and she would update me on Sunday if school would be on on Monday?? ;(

Friday, 19 Sep 2008, about 9+am, in midtown …

Checked out Coco’s Crepe at Midtown.  Bus made a detour from its usual route to cross into downtown when a police signalled to the bus captain the bridge was closed … not sure … anyhow.  Having nutella crepe and coffee by the sidewalk on a weekday morn was very therapeutic to the soul, a light background music, people watch, nice sun ray though the breeze was a tad too cold - I forgot I was in Houston?!!  Very productive, I completed 1/3 on Stephen Covey’s The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People

Walked from Gray to W Gray most of the way, shopped for a mini cheesecake pan at Sur La Table.  Garren called to ask if I am ok and if I would like to join for dinner that evening – I was to meet 2 Singaporeans Garren and David that evening, we have never met before and yet they never felt like strangers.  Had dinner at KL Malaysia, I would conclude the company was better than the food.  I missed the spices but I don’t miss food in general.  They brought me to a supermarket called Golden selling all Chinese and Asian stuff, for a after dinner walk.  I already have the essentials in my apartment.  Thank you for the company, Garren and David! 

 

Back at apartment, I called BK who just touched down into Singapore from Hong Kong.  While I was out that morning, internet connection to AT&T terminal went flat … no connection again.  But I was out the whole day and decided not to think about it. 

Saturday, 20 Sep 2008, about 10am, in apt …

Decided to do nothing for the day, feeling moderate withdrawal symptoms from missing school and missing internet connection.  I allowed myself to do as I wished – spent the day hibernating in the apartment, was not progressing even though I was reading 7 Habits, achieved fewer than 10 pages.  Took out some maps and materials I had on Houston and starting planning a getaway if ever school was not going to start on Monday…ha!  Realised I have a Houston map by metro transit system – interesting.  It provided a bird eye’s view of how areas are connected by bus routes.  

Energy drained by evening, decided to go H.E.B., more for a breather - got my first bunch of veg – broccoli and spinach – since Ike.  Bumped into a familiar face – not a stranger, not a friend either, just someone I bumped into in my neighbourhood while he walked his dog.  He came forward to talk, my sustained interest was shortlived – especially after he went into the nutrients and vitamins for each choice of purchase in his cart and he repeated some words as if I didn’t understand English – juicer, you understand juicer?? … He tried to tell me the way to choose a watermelon was to smell it after he saw I picked up a personal watermelon (cute, literally what it was called!).  I needed a quiet break shopping, and I know you don’t sniff your way to a good watermelon.  Garren, David and I were just talking about watermelon selection the previous evening.  Anyhow I continued alone with “retail therapy”.  Cooked a quick dinner of broccoli, baked beans and eggs. 

Wow … got my internet connection back, after nearly 2 days.  Brother called to connect mum and me on skype.  Decided to make cold dessert red bean soup for the next day – bought a packet of “small red beans” from H.E.B. - they were not small, bigger than the beans we cooked back home.  Mum told me to try doing my own bean paste for pastries, prompted by the recent news that commercial supply of bean paste from China apparently had some issues.  I was indeed thinking about bean paste that very evening.  She reminded me not to eat too much red beans, as legumes generally exacerbate joint problems - I had sustained a sport injury to the medial collateral ligament in my right knee though my knee has been pretty faithful to me in the past years.  Got my energy back with internet back on.  Life moved at a faster tempo

Sunday, 21 Sep 2008, about 11am, along Rice Blvd …

I was feeling high spirited walking along tree lined Rice Blvd.  I was to check out Croissant Brioche Cafe – a nice casual french cafe where I completed the second third of 7 Habits and sat in a corner for next 3hr …. the spinach quiche was tasty but would have preferred the crust more crusty??hmm … I love quiche. The coffee was flavourful, not sure why I ordered a latte - had wanted just a cafe au lait, nvm.  Didn’t have room for the almond croissant which I read was good.  Enjoyed walking the streets that make up Rice Village, even though most of the shops were closed.  Happy to find Half Price Books – Garren just mentioned to me on Friday.  I spent too much on books, maybe you can call it investment ;)   So I spent another 3hr in the bookstore.  I found a new copy of 7 Habits for 6 bucks – what a steal – what was more important was that I committed myself to work on effectiveness of “my life“ over the coming weeks, and the book I was reading belonged to Mr LeNotre.  Other than the 30min wait for the first bus, I was back at my apt by the next half hour.

I snacked on my red bean dessert and an apple, too lazy to cook dinner.  Yes, I gave in to my craving of jalapenos tortilla chips when I was at Walgreen to pick up the refill phone card .  I had put back on some weight over the last week, I think - it must be the high carbo diet. 

Decided to update the post as a week+ overview, as part of last week was pretty mundane and repetitive with pre-occupied thinking.  I have a couple of posts to update coming week, including finishing the one I started on “Capturing the Moments..“ before power went out.

Sunday, 21 Sep 2008, about 10pm, in my apt …

Dozed off … when I woke up and disoriented, I saw 9.40 on the clock and had a bad shock – I thought I missed the first day of level 2 class – ha ha ha!  I am really anxious to return to pastry lab … I was initially thinking about it so much that I was disppointed when there was no power and no school as each day went by.  I had to suppress the anticipation to lead more effective days from Thursday.

My sleep pattern was broken in the past week, I no longer wake up automatically at 5.30am.  BK assured me he will wake me up tomorrow, he had just arrived into Sydney while I was roaming Rice Blvd.  Looking forward to return to school and excited to meet chefs and my friends again are no exaggeration.

I look at the date … 21 Sept … the last proper lab time before the exam was on 5 Sept … how time flies…  Can’t turn back the clock of past week - will Chef Philippe push us extra hard or give us extra attention to make up lost hours? … It is a real deal, I am more than happy to take on and take in whatever.

Going to iron my uniform and back to my 3hr sleep schedule…