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A Little Nudge “online” from CIAML

It is 1am in Singapore.

As usual, I was maximizing my time after work (even if I “work” for free, it is still considered work right?) reading and surfing… before I turn in around 2.  I aim for a solid 4 hour sleep minimum each day so that I wake up fresh, or at least with enough energy to start the day with a smile.  It is a daily pre-requisite.

…  then I typed “ciaml.com”, and I was redirected to www.culinaryinstitute.edu … I clicked on “Listen To What Our Students Have To Say”  …  I guess I was just taking a mental break and was surfing aimlessly.

I saw my face … Gasp!  A picture I took with Mr LeNotre when I was in level 1, apparently it was a privilege for foreign students.  I guess it was a bonus for us since we flew into Houston from wherever we came from to attend classes and live in Houston ~ a sure sign of committment and faith … I remembered it was the day before Singapore National Day.  That is the pix was taken on 8 August 2008.

 Then I read the words … I remembered those were the words I wrote to Mr LeNotre before I left for Singapore.  It was a timely reminder I read it now, it was a little nudge for me to be focus, a reason to keep to the vision I set … amongst the distractions in my daily life and the tired mind at the end of each day.

I Read… (My Note to Mr LeNotre)

Dearest Chef, Dearest Sir,  

I want you to know I enjoyed myself at the Culinary Institute leNotre. The past 20 weeks have come and gone. I am gonna miss you, miss the Chefs I have come to know, miss the niceness I have been generously showered with. All these I am taking home to Singapore, They are not just memories but inspirations to my life, and like you said “…inspired by people who were inspired by people who were inspired by people…”, and I will in turn inspire others at the right time, one day.

You have touched my life, really!

Thank you

Wishing you good health, good luck, good life & every goodness you deserve! 

December 1st, 2008

(Joycelyn Sim, Singapore)

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” … I will in turn inspire others at the right time, one day.”

I read the line again and again … in my little ways each day, I share positively with the young ones (coz more than 90% of the pastry team is younger than me) without sounding too unrealistic and appearing too optmistic, I make it a habit to smile and share my joyous self and it comes naturally each day (and it is certainly well practised)…

But this line reminded me I want to make an impact to other people’s lives, a massive impact to be exact.  Now it is a Big Dream … at least I have to keep working on the BIG Dream… put in the thoughts and action steps, perservere, purposefully work on it, believe in it … and keep my vision alive, …

So that I inch forward toward The Right Time, One Day.

748 Hours Later ~ I Graduated. My Tributes…

This post is super long, I started and still not completed, but I am posting it or it continues to sit unpublished.  Then I will enjoy my weekend first …

~

About 20 weeks and 748 hours later … On 21 November 2008 I graduated with a Gold Award Diploma in Sous Chef de Patisserie. (It was also my Mum’s 62th Birthday over in Singapore on 22 November, Singapore being 14 hours ahead of US Central Time, Daylight Saving.)  Six of us were also awarded with The Steven K. Schultz Awards in recognition for Perfect Attendance.

Perfect Attendance.  As far as it is within my control, I will continue to maintain the base expectation of being early and being present.  As far as attendance goes, I had perfect attendance during my schooling years … it must have been my Mum, no missing of classes and there was no question about it, I was brought up to understand it should be so.  I drifted quite a bit during university years but I am glad it was just a short 3 years.

Attitude.  I enjoy the art of learning, the art of enjoying the present moments, and the works of nurture and inspirations.  I remained steadfast in my goal to learn and grow as an individual as well as to inspire growth in people around me.  I believe strongly in staying focused on positive perspectives, for things happened for great reasons in life.  As far as I am concerned, I hold strongly my respect for authority and my peers.  I got better over the years – I learnt to question,  I learnt to accept some decisions, I learnt to let go of my own opinions when they were not crucial or another suggestion made better sense, I learnt to give in when it meant making the other person happier without compromising the end results … I continue to be curious and enjoy learning from the individuals around me. 

Savour.  I am blessed to be here in Houston, even though I was leaving apart from my husband and my family for the past 20 weeks.  It is a gift I treasure a lot.  BK made it possible – he agreed to let me come, and encouraged me to pursue my dream.  It is almost unreal.  Truth be said - I enjoyed and valued my environment, the people I have come to know, and the lessons I learnt beyond the recipes.  Very few things or people bothered me, I accepted what happened, I learnt to take in, chew on it and some I let go, the great ones I held them close to my heart.

Friendship.  I made good friends in Houston – At the culinary institute, some Singaporeans I got to know in Houston, and from Houston Dessert Meetup Group.  To all I have come to know in Houston, I am thankful I got to know you in this part of the world and for some, I believe we will remain friends regardless of where we move on to.  I also accept that some are passer-bys in my life, nevertheless, they contributed to my life journey and played a role while I am here in Houston, and formed my memories.  I am also happy to meet Vivian and Lilian (thanks for hooking us up!) in Houston, have not met both for nearly 2 decades in Singapore.  For all my friends, as the saying goes 有缘千里来相会, 无缘见面也不知… if we are predestined to meet, we would travel great distance to meet and know each other, otherwise even when we meet face to face we would also not be acquainted.  How meaningful!

~

Graduation signifies the beginning of a new journey for me.  It is only a beginning.  I will continue with the same attitude I brought to Houston.  Dream.  Believe.  Love.  Inspire.

~ 

My Graduation Day ~ 21 November 2008,  Central Time

grad-display-with-gold-band_rim1My pix was taken at my graduation display table in the pastry lab, where I worked for the past 9 weeks (lost a week to Ike) – a corner in the back of the pastry lab.

The table display had my wedding cake, pastillage, sugar art, choc icing mousse cake, and choc box.

 

 MY TRIBUTES TO IMPORTANT INDIVIDUALS 

with-chef_rimMy Chef.  This is is my Level 2 & 3 Chef ~ Chef Philippe.  This is the first time his pix appeared on my journal entry.  And this was why

22 Nov 2008, PM

I just had a chat with my dad via skype earlier, he congratulated me on my graduation.  I told him I am going to finally post a picture of Chef Philippe on my journal entry, and he can get Pei San – my sis-in-law, to print out for him to see how my Chef looks like.  I told him Chef just gave his permission to publish his pix on my blog on my graduation day, my Dad laughed.  Weeks earlier when I just moved into level 2 Baking & Pastry Arts class, during my weekly skypeout update with Dad,  I told him I was “warned” by Chef Philippe not to post his picture on my blog or “you will get points deducted from your grades” … Then it was the evening of the Gala, 5 Sept 2008, I was to complete level 1 the following week and move to Chef Philippe’s Level 2 class.  For every week after that, Dad always asked how I was doing in Chef Philippe’s class and how was Chef that week.  Ha

Seriously, I didn’t think Chef Philippe was serious, but I did not post any.  ;)

I enjoyed and learnt a lot from Chef Philippe’s class … I enjoy specific, exact, precise, detailed (do they all mean the same? hee …) methods of instruction… Chef was also watchful and observant to how we performed, and quick to be at our sides to rescue us, even though he expressed it differently in words.  In his class, I learnt to understand the hows and appreciate why I did them the way they were.  … I became more confident in choc and enjoyed choc (specifically mentioned choc coz my feel for it significantly changed and it got cleaner each time) … yes, all the cooking that required specific temperatures (eg vanilla sauce, choc icing), I managed so much better.  Like he said, we have a choice.  I chose to enjoy his sessions and appreciate him as an individual as well as my Chef. 

Every morning for the past weeks, Chef and Sandra drove me to the culinary institute, and back to my apartment on Wednesday and Friday afternoons.  We live across the White Oak Bayou across each other ~ so they are my neighbours…  Pai seh (Chinese dialect, loosely translated ~ shy) … but I am really grateful for their thoughtfulness!

Through Chef Philippe, I got introduced to my first French teacher and gotta know another friend in Houston.  Merci beaucoup, Chef!

 with-chef-sebastien2

Also My Chef.  Chef Sebastien is my Level 1 Chef.  Never had a pix taken with him during my level 1 final as the finals ended abruptly on Day 2 instead of the usual 3 days, due to Ike.  There was no proper closure then.

Chef Sebastien integrated me (I speak for myself…) well into the introduction course at the culinary institute and got me to love and enjoy what I do and learn, and I got to make mistakes and learn from them… along the way, I laughed a lot and remained blur blur.

I remembered Chef Sebastien didn’t like sweet stuff and he is a Pastry Chef, I didn’t like sweet stuff too so I got some reassurance.  Nearing the end of my Level 1, he asked how many of the recipes I liked for the hundreds we had completed, … 4?  OK, now maybe more as my taste buds are changing  … he was “appalled” I only liked the taste of 4 recipes after all he had taught.  Ha.  I really enjoyed the taste of 4, but I could appreciate and memorize the tastes of the others.

Chef Sebastien gave me the reassurance and the calmness I needed that all is well, and would be well.  No words needed.

with-mr-lenotrePresident cum Owner.  I was researching online on culinary programs, read about LeNotre, then about Mr Alain LeNotre and his school in Houston, decided to enrol into CIAML, and was introduced to him during the school tour on my day 2 in Houston.  BK commented he spoke with a lot of passion, assertiveness and sincerity when we met.  

A week into the course, we had an orientation session with Mr LeNotre.  His advice was very practical and direct - he said matter of factly the Chefs in school are good and experienced Chefs, we should learn from them and find out about them and their motivations as much as possible and to do it now…, coz he accepted that they will not stay with the school forever.

About 5 weeks into my course, I blasted my blog address to my friends back home in Singapore and some parts of the world, Jean-Luc found out and soon I got called to Mr LeNotre’s office.  He rounded up our conversation with ”Joy, my door is always open“.  I appreciate that he spoke with me, advised me and treated me like I am – a mature student.  I enjoyed his straight forward advice, and he was generous in sharing them.  Through his recommendation, I completed Leadership Lessons from A Chef.  Finding Time to Be Great by Chef Charles Carroll by week 5 of my course, and got started on The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People (a title I knew more than 10 years ago but never got down to reading it … I started and this time I can appreciate what was written).  He had said Joy, you should read this, and I did.    

You should roll down your sleeves … Didn’t your chef ask you to roll down your sleeves? … He showed genuine concern when he noticed I had burnt marks and bruises on my arms … or maybe he was disgustedHa, I couldn’t help it sometimes I was really blur. 

Joy, you are too proper … during a chat we had on being upfront with my personal goals when working for establishments back home.  I remained so, indeed.  Still very proper.

with-chef-krisChef of Chefs.  I got to hear from Chef Kris in my Level 1 a lot, and I heard and appreciated every advice he gave.

Chef’s Topic on Misen Place, 7 July.  3 days into my course.  On preparedness of the mind, on preparedness to start the day.  To be on time means to be early.

Chef’s Club, 23 July.  2 weeks into my course, the first I volunteered.  I still remembered the purple cabbage in reduced red wine sauce, the forced meat and the garlic incident.  We had fun prepping, learning, and … taking lots of notes

Lessons on ServSafe, 4 & 6 August.  4 weeks into my course.  I dreaded sitting still, but my ears were up each time Chef shared his experience, and loads of them.  Even in the most awful working environment, I can learn good lessons of what nots and what I should do when I am in controlMore notes taking.  But his sharing also put me off eating certain food :~

In Pastry Lab Level 1, 27 & 28 August.  After feeling a little disoriented for day 1 due to cups and spoons, I enjoyed Chef Kris’s sessions and his cool and practical ways he confronted each situation.  He taught us to think recipes branching from a basic recipe, to be adaptable, to move it move it …

To the Chefs’ Office, 16 October.  A couple of days earlier, Chef asked if I have been updating my blog entry … it appeared it had been some time since I interacted with Chef Kris, but I realised it was due to Ike as school was disrupted for 2 weeks, and it was 2 weeks since lessons started proper.  Chef soon read my blog updates and I was called to see him regarding my career plan.  I still have not read the 3 books he advised me to.  I graduated but I will be seeing him on Monday for a discussion and complete my ServSafe certification.  I am committed to doing it, because he bothered to.

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with-bkMy Buddy, My Hubby.  During my graduation day, I joked that I  finally gotta stand as tall as him.  Smile.  

BK has been constantly there for me … when I first came to Houston and totally disoriented - he made sure I got better in my directions; Then nearly everyday after, we updated each other how our day went virtually;  He was here so that we could celebrate his birthday and spend time together; Then my Graduation week, again he was here even though we were both pre-occupied, he was busy with work and I with Finals… and on my Graduation day, he was there for me every moment I needed him.  He made it so matter of fact, so unconditional…  I am really blessed, really really

He told me just a couple of days ago after he left Houston – he was speaking with someone about me being in Houston and he in Singapore – he wanted me to enjoy what I do, he knew for sure I am focus and I would be heading home to Singapore once I am done… for me, there is no doubt about it.   Like Sarah said about Charles, the same for BK, I would not give him up for the world.  Period.  Ha.

~

More about my pals later, I should stop somewhere and enjoy today.

3, 2, 1 …

It was 11pm and BK just got back from a company dinner in Spring.  I just realised I woke up to open the door for him, I don’t remember.  I must have slept since 7pm - while thinking of my mousse cake for tomorrow.  Ha.

Now … a couple of minutes more and it will be a new day.  Suddenly it dawned on me I have 3 more days at the culinary institute before I graduate with a Diploma of Sous Chef de Patisserie.  Just 3 more days

In class today, …

… We had an easy day as Chef Philippe let us play with sugar.  We had just completed The Chocolate Box a day earlier, a day ahead of schedule.  The Sugar Art final will be on Thursday – I am amazed at the number of forms sugar take … clear, bubble, rock, coloured, shaped, pulled, blown etc.  It can be fun but it takes mind, heart and a pair of qualified hands.  Final showpiece

… “So are we having a get-together meal together?” I asked Sarah.  We had been talking about this since our level 1 final, to meet as a class.  Then Ike came and the plan never materialized.  This time, it is time for good-byes.  I don’t know if we came to a conclusion before the end of the class today – but we are going to toast our graduation with margaritas for sure.  Somewhere in Shepherd?  Or still not concluded?  We try to fix a time around everyone - Jill will be going back to Colorado on Sat and will try to make it; Sarah did not want anything before 1pm; I prefer anything after 2pm as BK’s flight back to Singapore is at 4; Ashley’s family restaurant last order for the afternoon is at 3pm; Krystine prefers anytime in the afternoon that will allow her to meet up with us, and go back home to dress up for party that evening …  I am not sure if we concluded a place and time, but it will be on this Saturday.  Farewell …

… Chef Philippe gave us a “surprise” item for Final for tomorrow.  He reminded us it will be 150 points our of 700 points for our Finals.  Remembered he mentioned that we will have a mousse cake for final about 2-3 weeks back – it was 31 October after our chocolate final.  So some of us expected a mousse cake, while some were still clueless.  A chocolate caramel mousse cake with chocolate icing …  After 2 trips over chocolate icing, I must have learnt the necessary lessons to do it right this final time, it gotta be so and I must have no doubt about it.  Lesson #1 learnt:  For small amount, empty the chocolate icing directly from the bowl over the mousse cake, don’t even bother with the laddle.  Lesson #2 learnt:  Warm icing to about 50oC for a thinner and more liquid consistency for easy pour and flow over the mousse cake.  Chef gave us the recipes titled Z’ Final Cake … reminding me that it will the last cake we will do in his class.  We were to know how to go about making the recipes and decide the decorations for the cake.  Final cake …

Yesterday, …

… Exit interview was conducted at 2.30pm for graduating students.  There are 28 of us in the graduating group, not sure if it included the group who have their graduation ceremony postponed to now due to Ike 10 weeks ago.  There were 3 forms to fill – feedback and comments, update contact details and our next steps, placement assistance.  Elyse tried the size of the graduating torque on all of us.  Graduation

Today, …

…  Class finished just before lunch.  I had time to go to the resource centre for some reading.  Will miss the good reads and the number of magazines I can devour at the culinary institute.  Final savour

…  Bob came into the resource centre to look for me.  He asked if I would make a 5-10min speech from a  graduating student to the graduating students.  It is my honor, thank you … .  I have to plan as “words… don’t come easy to me, how can I find a way to …” in front of a huge audience.  What shall I say?  I am clueless now, but I know it will come from my heart.  I will think about it tomorrow after my mousse cake final.  Graduating speech …   

At this moment, … it is about 1am now.   

It hit me once again that life in last couple of weeks and months here in Houston has been a great blessing, a luxury, and a good break to reconcile my thoughts and my mid-life, and I certainly treasure my buddy in BK more.  It is so unreal, and I am indeed blessed to have the opportunity to experience and savour each and every moments.  I am thankful for the people I met and get to know in Houston – many wonderful people I would otherwise never get to know.  For some, I believe we will continue our friendship regardless of where we are for a long time.

It is good that Mousse Cake Final and Sugar Art Final take place over the next 2 days.  That will keep my mind occupied till graduation day.  How do you feel?  Are you excited to go home?  etc  I was constantly asked for last weeks … the first few times I was asked, tears well up easily, now I am more controlled though I can’t say I am more prepared…  BK gave me a reality check last week – his response to me was “I am happy you enjoyed yourself and your experience…”  Indirectly I guess he is telling me to savour each moment and move forward.

我真的很舍不得。。。 可是我会珍惜,我会回味 。。。我在Houston所经历的一切, 我所认识的每一个朋友。尤其我的导师们,我衷心向您致谢!

What A Day … It Gotta Be Better Tomorrow & After

I am happy today ended better than the day itself.

Done for the Day… At Least For Me

April joined me, … she had earlier walked in to check if I am feeling fine, she offered me a hug. Ha!  I told her not to talk to me, I didn’t need a hug and just standing by me was more than enough.  I had taken a breather from class, I felt I needed to scream but in class my side of the class hardly talked, we worked that way.  Even if we did, it was talking to our own selves and between ourselves.  She pulled out a chair to sit, and I sat next to her and we both sat facing the glass panes … She told me later after class she was trying to make small talk to distract me and make me feel better, but apparently whatever she tried to say seemed to make me feel worse.  I told her I wasn’t thinking much then, I felt heavy in the heart and just needed some space for breather, and I just didn’t want to do another piece of work in class.  That was how lousy I felt …  I returned to class, still feeling heavy, there was no outlet to release my pent up frustration.

It was 1pm.  We had just cleaned up.  Chef Philippe asked for a batch of Royal Icing for the class and for us to do piping before lunch at 1.30pm.  In fact now lunch starts about 2pm with the bigger group of students and addition of 1 extra class in level 1 Cuisine and level 1 Baking & Pastry Arts.  I whispered to Sarah, I did not want to prep Royal Icing, … she was not in the best shape too.  Waited.  Look like no one intended to do it, I told her I am just gonna do it so we got some time to practice rather than prep and pack up, she agreed to help.  Let’s go.

~  A Whole Cake To Ourselves and Eat It!

Lunch – I left my name tag to reserve seats for some of us, when I got back to the table, my name tag went missing and no one claimed to have seen it.  I knew someone was pulling a fast one on me, and I wasn’t in the mood to find out who, I got out of the lunch room to look for Elheme.  I told her my name tag would surface later but I needed a name tag in case I didn’t get back before I returned to class.  She obliged immediately.  I was back in lunch room and presentation was in progress.  2.10pm.  For the first time, Sarah played a joke, and she was hoping to make me feel better … now I have 2 name tags?

I was seated at the same table as April, Sarah, Jill, Amber and Elizabeth.  We were done with food, there was no more mousse cake at the serving table, we decided to share a whole Cocoa Raspberry mousse cake among overselves.  We ate more than usual and just wanted to sit there forever.  I popped in 4 macaroons and 2 slices of cakes … definitely signs of stress.

I Don’t Want to Do Anymore Work

We were back in class, we really didn’t want to do anymore work.  Chef came in, said nothing and left the lab, we guess he knew we were really done with the day.  But coz Chef said nothing, we continued piping, I started piping on the side of our table, Sarah joined in and I could see she was having fun and we just need to be naughty some time.  But piping by the side of table was certainly more fun than on the table top.  We thought of cleaning just our table top and leaving all the Royal Icing on the sides at the end of the day and … that thought just made us laugh.  This point Krystine and Jill joined in and we took their pix to capture evidence of “guilty” faces if we should decide to leave the sides of the table uncleaned… ha ha ha.

~

The Day Just Couldn’t Be Worse

Earlier in the day, we were pouring chocolate icing over the mousse cake.   I did it in level 1 before.  I did mine after Sarah, both of us partnered each other for the week with few hiccups.  Sarah handled me a ladle and I poured the icing over the mousse cake.  Alas!  It wasn’t enough to complete icing the 2 sides.  I must have poured lobe-sided.  Then I added a second ladle of icing which Chef had advised against, I should have the first ladle full to get it done one time.  Then 1 thing led to the next.  I let my first foul up affected me and the next thing, I scrapped the icing off with some mousse off the top of the cake while leveling off the excess.  That feeling was real sxxxxYou are not thinking of what you are doing?  I heard Chef said.  Indeed, I was the last person to use the icing, I should have just poured whatever is remaining in the pot directly onto the cake.  Gosh.  I just never thought of messing up something I did in level 1.

Next, we completed the chocolate ribbons to put on the cake.  I just did not want to see my cake again.  We cleared our table.  Lifting off the cake from the rack, I was careful not to mess up this time, I guess too careful and seeing the cake just made me foul up again.  Centralising the cake on the cake board, using 1 finger to let the cake drop nicely.  It did.  Relief!  Then, I felt my knuckles touched something cold…  It was Sarah’s nicely iced cake sitting on my right.  I couldn’t believe it!  Sarah was just so cool about it that I felt many times worse – she had felt frustrated earlier about her ribbons and had mentioned to me at least she got her one thing right – her cake!!  I decided that was the last thing I wanted to do in the lab for the day.  Anyway, Sarah and I completed what we were supposed to do with the cake and put back into the chiller.  I told Sarah that was it, I needed to get out …

~

Sitting at the stone table after class, Sarah, April and I were laughing from our sugar high … we chatted till evening class came.  The chat helped definitely.  I was still apologetic over her cake …  Before we left for the day … Tomorrow will be a better day, we both hope.

Done with First Go at Pastillage

This entry and previous entry should be read in totality  …  (My previous account of air brushing my pastillage http://bakingjoysinhouston.com/2008/10/03/getting-out-of-hand-with-pastillage/)

I am so happy and relieved my first go at pastillage ended up like a “show piece”.  Compared to my air brushing, I think I fared better at gluing them together.  Just say that I finished it just before lunch at the Culinary Institute while waiting for lunch to be ready, and had a relaxing lunch yesterday.  A short moment earlier and the day earlier, I stared at all the coloured pieces and couldn’t make out how I was to piece them together.  When Chef Philippe said we got to finish by Tuesday, my mind was automatically set to “just gotta do it and make it happen” mode, the pieces just came together … I believed I really got divine help, coz the final “show piece” was beyond my imagination when I first completed air brushing the pastillage.  The after effect at the end of last friday when pastillage was air brushed – I needed a dose of caffaeine to sooth my nerve, and the after effect of yesterday – when the pastillage pieces came together – I was so relieved and I managed a long sleep after.  Retrospectively, I have to admit it was fun though I needed more feel in colours and air brushing.  Anyway, it got done.  Yes!

The “show piece” was only for practice, we started working on it when the Culinary Institute had not fully recovered the power post Ike.  We will need to do one for the level 3 final in a couple of weeks.  I seriously need to do some work in air brushing.