Monthly Archives: August 2008

Missing The Man at Home

Last night, I was trying to open a new bottle of mineral water and the cap just wouldn’t budge – tried as I might – I scraped some skin off my right palm and cut my left index finger - ouch! – And it still wouldn’t budge.  I immediately thought of BK and sms him so – ha … he was then on the flight to Seoul.  Every now and then, little things happened that nudged me he is not here with me, especially when I needed TLC.  Now the cap is finally opened - Jennie taught me to leverage on the back handles of a scissor or a tool when The Man is not around, so I tried with that of a turn-screw can opener and it worked!  She mentioned to me about living without The Man at Home!!??  Hee.

When I first came to Houston, I knew nuts about the direction here.  Today I still can’t tell which part of Houston is E or W till I read the map.  The bus route still confuses me, especially when it states Eastbound or Westbound, I recognise and remember places way better.  I read the map pretty well though, so at least that helps me get around.

BK was here with me for a week.  He made sure I got an apartment that is in a safe environment and comfortable enough for me to live in, he got most of the bulky necessities stocked up for next 5 months while I am here, he visited the school with me to make sure the culinary institute I have chosen to come all the way from Singapore for exists and it is as what the website stated, he oriented me to the bus stops so that I am at the right one to go to school each morning and back, he drove the bus routes so that I became familiar with the environment and could go places.  After he has done all these, he told me he felt comfortable and he was ready to head back to Singapore … I felt sad… and he said I will be fine living in Houston alone.

In the first week, when I wanted to visit a pastry cafe, he checked the bus route and timing for me so that I wouldn’t get lost, I just couldn’t make sense of bus 40 bus stops, there are 4 bus stops in 4 different directions?  Singapore time is 13 hours ahead of Houston, this meant that when I was going out on Saturday mid morn, it was already late at night for him.  One day I told him, I have got to read the metro myself, and I did.

We chatted and webcam via skype daily, that was before he joined a new company where skype usage was not permitted.  Now we are on MSN IM.  We still prefer to talk via skype and he had it loaded on his mini notebook.  He gives me wake-up calls every morning… oops yes! … mostly from Singapore, recently in Hong Kong and today from Seoul, Korea wherever he made his business travels.   I remembered there was one morning he missed my wake-up call and I didn’t wake up to catch the bus.  April came to save my day and got me to school early that day.  He called and was worried I missed school … Ha ha …  Of course I wasn’t mad, I felt pampered he remembered my wake up time whatever he was doing and wherever he was.  That day, I remembered Chef Sebastien looked at me in disbelief, “You got an overseas wake-up call from your husband everyday?“  Yes, I still do, even though now I hear my alarm clock better.

Every weekend, he would brunch with my dad to update him on me over local carrot cakes, char kway teow and kopi at a neighbourhood hawker centre - my dad just could not associate himself with technology to keep up with my updates.  In the beginning, BK would print out pictures and gave dad a run through based on the scripts I wrote for each pix.  More recently, he would print out my blog entries so that my dad got to keep up with my thinking and happenings.  I am really thankful he has a good relationship with my dad and my family.  Every Friday whenever he is not travelling, he would visit my parent’s cum brother’s home to have dinner, mum would cook him special dishes as he needs to eat out most of the week when I am not around.  My sis-in-law told me once he stayed to watch a Barbie doll movie with my 3 little nieces – how nice!  He is a patient guy and would usually play with them.  Now he will attend all the family birthday celebrations as we did from June to Dec each year – yes all the birthdays at home are all between June to December, all 14 of them … and we celebrate them… I miss all these family celebration!  My dad turned 69 last month and he set up a skype webcam so that I got to celebrate for my dad too.  How thoughtful and cool!

I am thankful I can live my passion and share a common goal with The Man at Home.  I am looking forward to his trip to Houston when I earn my Diploma in Baking and Pastry Arts.  And then I will be back home in Singapore.  Smile!

a Déjà vu?… Walking the Same Route Back

It is 10pm and I am munching  on the Italian broccoli dinner I just cooked.  Munching as the cone-shaped florets provided an even crunch to every bite, the veg has a nice sweetness in it, above the sweetness brought about by the oyster sauce, carrot sticks and my fav 2 eggs.  Dinner for one in Houston is usually a home-cooked simple dish with rice or pasta, or the simple dish itself.  In Singapore, I would cook about 2-3 times a week for BK and myself depending on my mood, eating out at the neighbourhood coffee shops, dinner to go or popping by my parents’ cum my brother’s home to enjoy mum’s cooking was usually just minutes away.

 

I was exhausted today – no, it wasn’t due to Pastry Lab – my shoulders were aching from the weight of my back pack, which only carried my Pastry level 1 file, my uniform and apron, and a book.  Like on Saturday, I reached my apartment past 5 … Like on Saturday, I walked my way back to my apartment from N Shepherd.  Yes, it was exactly the same route as Saturday when I missed my stop on 11th St, I was day dreaming then…  Like on Saturday, I wanted to laugh but for a totally different reason.

After school today, Jennie and I had gone to Sur La Table on Shepherd @ W Gray.  Jennie lives by that area.  I had bought some stuff there on Saturday, but didn’t have my student card to enjoy a 10% discount.  I was back again today to collect my stuff and buy more stuff, ahem!  No, they are not indulgence or impulsive shopping – they are my necessities to practise for my upcoming final in 3 week’s time and explore new recipes while I am here in Houston.  Retail therapy has always been mentally relaxing, it works 100% of the time.  With Jennie, visiting the store was fun as she found use in every gadgets and toys – nay, whatcha she might call it – necessities too.

I waited at the same bus stop as Saturday.  Jennie’s home was just minutes away, I told her I could ride the bus and I am familiar with the route.  Indeed, the bus came and I was mindful to drop off at 11th St, unless on Saturday I day dreamt my way to 20th.  Alas!  The bus stopped at the traffic junction on Shepherd @ 11th St, I saw 2 bus 40 went by me, same time – one after another.  Both would have brought me back to my apartment.  I decided to continue on the same bus to chase the bus 40 in front.  It never caught up, but I was back on 20th St, like on Saturday.

The environment was familiar, I decided to walk my way back, again.  I wanted to laugh – the whole chain of event was so familiar, except for one, this time I was carrying the Sur La Table paper bag, which broke under the weight of stuff I bought just when I boarded the bus.  I wanted to laugh because I had written too soon on my blog last Saturday that I was lucky I wasn’t carrying my Sur La Table purchase during my unintended walk back.  Today adding on to the weight of my back pack, I was carrying a broken bag containing 2 “professional heavyweight metal” trays, a metal rack, some tartlet tins, an “Endurance(R) stainless steel” mixer, a zester, a whisk (yes, I bought another), parchment paper roll and …  Chef Sebastien had earlier said to me in class, “You are buying these things and taking the bus? ”  Then we both didn’t know a long walk was thrown in as extra bonus.  This time though, the walk seemed easier, despite the weight – I had already walked the route once so I was familiar, I wasn’t too paranoid.  I had stopped at a stone bench outside some houses along the way for a couple of minutes, I was really tired, but I decided to continue my walk.  Again, I was relieved when I saw Restaurant Depot in sight, my footsteps then all the way back to my door were in auto-cruise, I was really exhausted.  I looked at the clock, again it was past 5, like on Saturday.  It seems like the Saturday walk home was a familiarising tour to prepare me for today, less the weight.

I zonked out almost immediately for the next 3 hours.  My shoulders and arms still aching

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As an after thougth, this trip to Houston does me a big favour – I acutally walk quite a bit.  Back in Singapore, I only travelled on wheels from point to point – I drove.  I did not take the public transports even though they were convenient, even when the bus stop is just outside my apartment.  Even this thought only came about when I am in Houston.  I never thought public transport was convenient, I did not have the patience to wait for one, a 10 min was a long wait for a bus then and most trains arrive in 2-3 min in Singapore.  Now I actually enjoy reading a book and waiting for buses for as long as 50 min.  I did not get to bask in the sun even though Singapore is summer all year through, I survived on air-conditioning.  The last time I basked in the sun excessively was when I was training for my high school canoeing team, and more recent times, when I read al fresco at cafes every weekends.

A Beauty in Italian Broccoli

I took out the vegetable with the intention to cook it for dinner.  I find the design fascinating so I took a few shots, then a few more and more … I had picked up the Italian Broccoli from Central Market yesterday, I thought it was a beauty.  I have not seen this species of broccoli in Singapore before .  I wasn’t sure if it was my ignorance, so I sent a picture via MSN to my friend Kyra, and she confirmed we may not have this in Singapore but it is recognisable it is a type of broccoli.

 

By the time I am done with the shots, I was too lazy to cook dinner.  The Italian Broccoli is still sitting on the countertop.  (Edited 3 hours later: when I re-read my own entry, I turned around and looked at the countertop, my broccoli was still there, I forgot to put it in the fridge.. hee

Broccoli, to me, has always been, well, a broccoli.  I just read that it belongs to the botrytis group, one of the 8 major groups of vegetable within the species Brassica oleracea (wild cabbage)… Oh but it also says “the italica group includes Italian broccoli, asparagus broccoli, sprouting broccoli, cape broccoli and purple cauliflower. These are similar to broccoli and cauliflower except that the flower buds are not condensed into compact, solid heads. They are rarely found in the US.”  I never knew there are different types of broccoli?  Why does my Italian broccoli have compact solid heads?  “Cabbage (and other members of the genus Brassica) contain very high levels of antioxidant and anticancer compounds… The anti-cancer properties of cabbage are so well-established that the American Cancer Society recommends that Americans increase their intake of cabbage and other crucifer crops… can protect the eyes against macular degeneration…”  Nevermind the questions, I am going to have my broccoli for dinner tomorrow!     

My cooking for broccoli has always been simple – peel the florets, slice the stems, heat the pan with some olive oil, sautee some chopped garlic, stir fry broccoli on high heat, sprinkle some salt, and add the ever reliable oyster sauce to taste, mix well.  Add some water, let it cook till through.  Dish onto plate.  With the gravy in the pot, I would usually crack 2 eggs – yes, to almost everything with gravy or soup, love the taste of soft boiled yolk – as opposed to the the taste of the powdery hard boiled yolk - and love it even more when the thick, yellow yolk flows all over my food when I prick it with a fork.  Nice!  I would love to add poached eggs instead, but I am still a long way to go to learn how to wrap the white tightly round the yolk.  I guess there is a reason why I am not in cuisine. 

No Limits But the Sky

Prof Lee wrote in her email to me, ” … there is something you are chasing – I hope you find it!!!!”  

Ours was a continuous and trusting relationship for 10 great years.  And still going strong.  Exactly 10 years ago, in Aug 1998, I became the Product Manager for Vaccines with a US pharmaceutical company in Singapore.  Prof Lee is a paediatrician and the Immunology expert in Singapore and naturally she was my key opinion leader and a key customer.  A professional relationship which turned into years of friendship – she is the person I trust for her opinions, the person I look up to, the person I would buy lunch any time (yes, I still owe you one from my last pay!), the person I would wait hours during weekends just to lunch and chat with her after she saw her last patient.

In the same email, she continued, ” … when you master the science and more imptly the art – please invite me ……………”

I believe I WOULD find It!  … She will be my VIP.

I had wanted to put this down for a long time, I read this from No Limits But the Sky, a gift book from Hallmark I picked up during my first weekend in Houston:

Only as high as I reach can I grow,

Only as far as I seek can I go,

Only as deep as I look can I see,

Only as much as I dream can I be.  – Stretch Your Dreams

And I believe in The Power Within:

Within our reach, lies every path … we ever dream of taking.

Within our power, lies every step … we ever dream of making.

Within our range, lies every joy … we ever dream of seeing.

Within ourselves, lies everything … we ever dream of being.

I am putting this down as a commitment to myself, to constantly take ANOTHER ONE Step toward my dreams.  I just created a Vision Board, it is stuck onto my light switch as I flick it on every morning, and sometimes forgot to flick it off when I have fallen asleep.

An Unintended Walk Home

Another weekend has arrived.  I woke up at about 9 and I remembered I needed to catch the bus to NW Transit Centre, I was only familiar with the 9.50am bus which will connect me to bus 33 and take me to Post Oak Blvd @ Westheimer with the shortest connection time. 

I had wanted to go to French Gourmet Bakery, I did not take down the address or check the location before I slept.  It is alright!  I will walk the Westheimer stretch towards downtown and check out whichever pastry cafe I chance into.  This was in the opposite direction from what I did the week before to go Kolache Factory @ Chimney Rocks.  Every weekend I will visit 1 pastry cafe as part of my exploration.

Bus 82 came when I was on Westheimer, I hopped onto the bus and let it take me to wherever I fancy.  I haven’t been to Central Market, so I got down and continued my walk.  I love supermarket shopping – rather I love to see what are on the shelves, products that are new and unfamiliar to me, new ideas … and of course I will buy something back, I just couldn’t resist.  I got a good excuse this time, my whisk disappeared in class, yes, it vanished… I bought one with white silicon that looked totally different from my classmates and I do not expect this to be mis-”taken” anytime.  I fancy all things Jalapenos, and there was a Hatch fair going on – I got a bottle of Green Chile Salsa Verde and another of Jalapeno Hatch Chile Jam … I also got a couple of Jalapenos recipes for cake, choux and sorbet etc (interesting!) from the sample booth but they were not placed into my bag at checkout (sob!it is okay, I will get them back!)  I also got excuse to indulge in bakeware in order to practise what I learnt in the lab …

Back on Westheimer, again bus 82 arrived immediately.  I hopped onto it again and let it take me to wherever.  Passing Kirby, the road sounded familiar enough, I got off and started walking, clueless where I was. Alas!  Just across the street, it was French Bakery Cafe!  I began to believe when I think hard enough, things will manifest itself…

The French Gourmet Bakery did not have a gourmet feel to it, even the cake display did not look gourmet enough.  But I love the spacious seating and a nice touch which include table seating by the windows with tiny curtains … the ray of sunshine gave a level of comfort for reading and my day dreaming.  Of course, I day dreamt with an order of Chocolate Croissant, a coffee, and a shortbread called Thumbprint.  I don’t think it is classic French, is it?  The coconut shortbread has a depression in the centre piped with chocolate fudge, the depression should fit the thumb size of the French chef who owned the bakery cafe.  I would like to know all the chefs behind the pastries I tried every weekend but was too hesitant to speak to one.  I spent some time reading The Secret, and day dreaming my vision.  I was served by Bethany, got to know she is also a Pastry student, doing an associate degree at the Art Institute.

I decided to walk to Sur La Table along Shepherd, the street at the next junction.  It was hot and sunny, though the walk was enjoyable along the shady pavement.  I indulged myself at Sur La Table, finding a reason for every buying decision – and there was always one!  I checked and confirmed that I would get a 10% discount for showing my culinary student card, I didn’t have one.  I have not gotten a replacement for the one to get my first name corrected.  I left my purchase behind to collect another day with my student card, and soon I found out the reason why.

I didn’t care to check how long I waited for the bus.  It was a long, hot and wet wait - I was perspiring profusely.  I managed to finish another 56 pages of The Secret.  Finally I got to enjoy the air-conditioned ride.  I guessed it was so comfortably that I didn’t remember if I was thinking of anything in particular.  I remembered seeing Kroger, Popeyes… Some time later, I noticed the bus was passing by W 18th St.  Gosh!  I was to have gotten off the bus at 11th St opposite Kroger and Popeyes.  I took out my map and oriented myself, the bus was going toward E 20th which is opposite way to where I lived.

 

I got off along 20th St @ Lawrence.  I made my way walking back toward W T C Jester since walking back to 11th St would take as much energy.  I convinced myself that my destination is just the next red line on the map.  I don’t know why, but I was smiling as I walked … I was thankful I didn’t have the bag of Sur La Table purchase with me … Restaurant Depot was in sight, and I knew I am near home.  At last.  In front of me a Central Bank sign read “Strong, Independent, Focused on You”, I smiled.  The comforting thought was I have probably digested the Chocolate Croissant and the little Thumbprint.